Sunday, June 6, 2010
Looking Back and Forging Ahead
All changes are more or less tinged with melancholy, for what we are leaving behind is part of ourselves. ~Amelia Barr
But as I think about my colleagues...it is then I began to wonder, "did I make the right choice?" I am having a hard time thinking about not seeing the friends that I have made in this 13 year journey everyday, I am having a hard time letting go of people that I probably have spent more time with in the last thirteen years than I have with my own family.
Then it hits me, that is why I made the choice...I have been gone too much for too long and I needed to change that. PC has been the most supportive in my decision because he wants me around for much longer. After my collapse in 2008, he fretted over me keeping the long hours and planning and doing the big (go big or go home is my motto) events I do with the kiddos.
He fretted I would be *gone* if I didn't give something up. So I expressed all of this to some of my dearest friends and colleagues and they all supported my decision and are happy for me.
However they are also sad, like me, that I am leaving their everyday lives. I'm not leaving the work force completely (I would go crazy). I'm going to school to be a Nurse...a long lost dream that PC is encouraging me to fulfill. Will it be easier than what I do now... I don't know if easier is the word but it will be different.
Friday night my "Sisters" threw me a surprise going away party with all the people that I will miss more than I can express, it was a beautiful evening filled with laughter and tears, as I am sure the next few days will be...but I am not *gone* I can still pop in for lunch or we can go have cocktails and of course, all the ladies are already planning their cookies for our Annual Exchange. The photos in this post are from the surprise party, in case you are wondering.
I will miss them all deeply. Thanks for reading, time for some therapeutic puttering. Tata for now!